This is part two of the Post-Grad Life post. In this post I will be discussing how I had to start back putting my faith and trust into God. I will also share a bit of my testimony as well. So let’s get into it!
During the time of when I thought about going back to school, I started my application for the University of North Florida (UNF), but I never submitted it. It was during the time I had pushed school aside and went back to figuring things out. During those moments, I felt alone and lost because I didn’t know what I wanted or what God wanted next for my life. I would often pray for a change to happen or for a sense of direction.
So y’all, out of nowhere I kept getting a call from a Jacksonville number and I don’t usually answer unknown calls. Though they did leave a voicemail and it was from UNF asking for an interview for their School Counseling program. I was shocked because how?! I didn’t even submit my application, but I did the interview anyway and I did great! They inform me to finish the application process and they will make their final decision. I submitted the main part of the application, but I never finished the second part for the program due to doubts and fear of actually being able to get through the program and moving.
Fast forwarding to August-September where I was in the mist of looking for a new job because I was tired and burned out with my current job. I was just ready for something new. I was also looking for Spring admissions for School Counseling programs as well, but I couldn’t find any. I just took it as a sign to sit back, be patient, and wait for God to see where I needed to go next in my life. I did tell God that when the next opportunity comes into my life that I was taking it. This was also around the time I went on my social media break as well.
End of September, I received an unexpected email from UNF informing me they are having a special edition admission for Spring 2023 for their School Counseling program. Y’all when I tell you that was my chance and it was my time, and I had already told God that the next time he put an opportunity in front of me, I was going to take it. And I did, I committed to submitting the application this time and it was a much smoother process this go round. I didn’t have to go through the interview process or do the speech part of the application due to doing so well on the first interview. I did get accepted into the school and y’all I felt like I finally had my breakthrough and I was just so proud of myself for falling through and trusting myself. Not to forget, I had always planned to move to Florida as my home, but I didn’t think it would be this soon!
I wanted to share this with y’all because I felt like I needed to be transparent and vulnerable with you all. But I really wanted to share this because we all go through different challenges and face many battles alone that not even our close ones knows about. There are many times when we lose the light of life and want to give up, but I’m here to tell you please do not give up! You can make it out, you can get through it, life is worth living. You are going to get the breakthrough you need, just please hold on a little while longer. It is going to come and you are going to see the light in your life again! I’m so glad after the amount of times I lost myself and was losing my faith that I did not give up and kept going no matter how hard tough it got. I’m so glad God did not give up on me and answered those suicidal prayers. I’m so happy I remembered my faith. Even though I was blessed with an opportunity, do not think the doubts aren’t still rolling in my head. I just have been trusting God more because for someway and somehow he always comes through and make a way. So please stay faithful and trust in yourself and God that you will make it through!
Please know that I am here for anyone who would like to just talk and just vent. Do note that I am not a licensed therapist, but I will provide some links below for where you can find a therapist for you.
https://providers.therapyforblackgirls.com/ IG: TherapyforBlackgirls
https://www.blackfemaletherapists.com/directory/ IG:BlackFemaleTherapists
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